Are you out of control?

Once again, I flew into a fit of rage at my two-year-old daughter over minor misbehavior. I knew my response was not normal, but I needed someone to blame for the anger I felt, anger that had nothing to do with her.

Growing up in a home where I felt I was never good enough led to poor choices. Those choices were now affecting how I was raising my own children.

Does this sound familiar? Would you like to shed the anger and live a full and abundant life in Christ? I promise you—it is possible!

For more than thirty years, I believed the lie that I was unworthy and unloved.

Many of my feelings stemmed from a deeper pain I tried to bury. Instead of dealing with it, I covered the pain with things of this world I thought would make me happy, worthy, and loved—my job, status, food, and relationships. But those pursuits led to strongholds and idols in my life that would harm me instead and make me feel more worthless and unlovable.

Even after I became a believer, I asked myself why I was still struggling so much. Jesus told us in His Word that he came so that we might have life and have it more abundantly, so why did I feel so worn down and defeated inside?

Before I repented of my sin of abortion,

I thought I would live with this awful secret until the day I died.

The Lord took this deep pain from my past and brought it to the surface so He could show me how to find hope and healing. Not only did He break me free from the shame and secrecy of my abortion, He also freed me in so many other areas in my life where I struggled.

Jesus wants to do that for you too! He is the only one who can help you break free from whatever strongholds and pain you are carrying.

“Therefore, if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed.” John 8:36 NKJV

Do you CARRY and BURY?

What is hurting you inside? What weighs heavy on your heart? Do you struggle in a relationship you wish were different? Do you have a secret habit you would like to break?

When we carry our burdens alone and bury the pain deep inside, they only weigh us down with guilt, shame, and depression. Jesus knew life would be hard and messy, that He would be the only one who could take away those feelings.

“He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted, To proclaim liberty to the captives,

And the opening of the prison to those who are bound.” Isaiah 61:1 NKJV

I kept the secret of my abortion buried for many years and thought it didn’t affect me. Oh, how I was wrong! A good friend invited me to join an abortion recovery Bible study. I didn’t think I needed it because God had already forgiven me of my sin and I was “fine.” But my reaction to my daughter made me think again. 

At the age of 33, I finally allowed the Lord into that very painful and shameful area of my heart where the memories of ending my first child’s life when I was 18 had lain dormant for years. For the next few months, God brought up the rage and bitterness that stemmed from the abortion and took me on a journey to find His forgiveness and freedom.

His grace healed my broken heart and gave me new hope and restoration.

Your pain no longer has to define who you are!

Jesus Christ can show you how to change the pain of your past to the peace of the present and live a life full of purpose.

Contact me and find out how!